Hi All I am so gratefull of the chance to post on a forum such as this. I have been seeking a place to share my fears & past with to no avail. The last time I completed an application to join a chat I was so so low & then my application was declined. I don't want to be negative you see and wish that I could inspire others after my lessons are learnt, but at the moment I am trapped in a horror of flashbacks & panic attacks. I wish I never stopped to look into my mind because I am sure that I will never get out. I get such powerful thoughts & fears that I am frightened most of the time. I wish I was strong enough to cope but i'm not. Oh listen to my self pity I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!